I need a sign to let me know you’re here
All of these lines are being crossed over the atmosphere
I need to know that things are gonna look up
‘Cause I feel us drowning in a sea spilled from a cup 

When there is no place safe and no safe place to put my head
When you feel the world shake from the words that are said 

I need a sign to let me know you’re here
‘Cause my TV set just keeps it all from being clear
I want a reason for the way things have to be
I need a hand to help build up some kind of hope inside of me 

And I’m calling all angels
I’m calling all you angels 

When children have to play inside so they don’t disappear
And private eyes solve marriage lies cause we don’t talk for years
And football teams are kissing Queens
And losing sight of having dreams
In a world that what we want is only what we want until it’s ours

I’m calling all angels
I’m calling all you angels.

- Train.

 

I really am calling all angels. Honest.

Everyone thinks his own burden heavy. - French Proverb

Do not free a camel of the burden of his hump; you may be freeing him from being a camel. - G. K. Chesterton

For so long I was out in the cold, 
and I taught myself to believe every story I told. 
It was fun hanging onto the moon, heading into the sun, 
but it’s been too long. Now I wanna come home. 

Came so close to the edge of defeat. 
But I made my way in the shade, keeping out of the heat. 
It was fun shooting out of the stars, looking into the sun, 
but it’s been too long. Now I wanna come home. 

Home. Where’s there’s nothing but sweet surrender, 
to the memories from afar. 
Home. To the place where the truth lies waiting, 
we remember who we are. 

- Paul Mccartney, Soundtrack of ‘Everybody’s Fine’

Every once in a while you can’t help but have this Eureka! moment or that moment that sounds like Ping! in your head and you can’t help but think that God, were you stupid to think a particular way and are still so darn stupid that your own stupidity baffles you beyond comprehension.

I bet this entry makes no sense but let me be; I need to wallow in understanding this stupidity.

Word of the Day: apomakrysmenophobia .

the bends
n. frustration that you’re not enjoying an experience as much as you should, even something you’ve worked for years to attain, which prompts you to plug in various thought combinations to try for anything more than static emotional blankness, as if your heart had been accidentally demagnetized by a surge of expectations.

Illustration: Law School plagues me the most horrible case of the bends.

slipcast
n. the default expression that your face automatically reverts to when idle—amused, melancholic, pissed off—which occurs when a strong emotion gets buried and forgotten in the psychological laundry of everyday life, leaving you wearing an unintentional vibe of pink or blue or gray, or in rare cases, a tie-dye of sheer madness.

Illustration: Slipcasted, I wish I had never ever set foot in Law School.

goffish

adj. exhausted by politeness, which wraps gifts of honesty in ceremonial bows, fluffy gestures and paper-thin phrases that protect the recipient from figuring out how you really feel about trust, status, intimacy and their new mustache.

Illustration: All I am right now: goffish. 

All hail The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows.

“I do get called a bitch quite often. What I do NOT get called is pushover, stupid, sweetheart, dear or doormat. Works for me.”
– Rebecca M.

“I love to see a young girl go out and grab the world by the lapels. Life’s a bitch. You’ve got to go out and kick ass.”
- Maya Angelou

“I’m tough, ambitious, and I know exactly what I want. If that makes me a bitch, okay.”
- Madonna

“If you aren’t in the moment, you are either looking forward to uncertainty, or back to pain and regret.” – Jim Carrey.

One of the best quotations I have read in the longest time.

B-E-A-Yootiful!

Often, there are these moments that are like a huge slap across your face or on the lines of someone throwing a huge bucket of freezing cold water on your face. The effect is terrifying.

And at other times there are moments in your life when you’re left facing the magnanimity of the situation or problem and yours seem trivial enough to make even a baby cry.

To those moments and to the shocked speechless expression on my face.